I am a creature of habit and routine. I can thrive in a properly scheduled environment. However, a key element is that the scheduled environment has to be mandatory. Right now, I have a lot to do, but am having trouble with motivation. I'm struggling with the disappointment of discovering a magical job isn't going to land in my lap! I know that was an unrealistic expectation but I sure did have it!
I've been thinking about my own “emotional intelligence” and how I pick up on social cues. I think I'm a relatively astute observer of body language & cues when watching an interaction, but when I am WITHIN the interaction, I am not always as good. MOSTLY because I ALWAYS have good intentions when I say things and so it would never occur to me that someone would take something I say in a mean or poor way. I guess I need to be more careful about what I say because even if I have good intentions, people don't always take it that way. And we all know the saying that good intentions pave the way to hell! That saying bothers me… I think the vast majority of people “get” me in real life and so I don't mean to make it sound like I am bad at basic social cues. I think I do better than a lot of people….but still could benefit from some more analysis!!
Last night I met up with a former fieldwork supervisor, at Cafe Eclectic in Midtown. Great company….Yummy food, yummy ice cream especially…my heart is in ice cream, always. It was nice seeing her and catching up. I really liked all of my fieldwork supervisors. Today I have some small goals, but goals nonetheless…including checking up on job applications and such. And I feel very guilty for how far behind I am on responding to emails and facebook messages. Gotta work on that too huh!